My new life, after my death.
Friday, March 13th, 2009
The Lord has decided to trust me with one of his servants, I pray that he will make me a good father, So that he will be cared for, and trained in the Way.
It was the first good warm day of the year, a full moon, and the Bradford pears bloomed today. Oh and it was a Monday. I learned today what life is, holding my second boy in my arms taught me that my life was over.
A friend pointed that out to me, on the phone. I think maybe he was trying to scare me, the way he said it, “Your life is over!” I didn’t realize before that the birth of your child would kill you, it has, and it’s great. I no longer live for me, I live for my children. I am dead so that they may live, I’ll no longer chase after things for Eddie.
My life is about them now.
“He who loves his life loses it, and he who hates his life in this world will keep it to life eternal.”
It’s worth it, It’s worth liveing for God, My Wife, My Sons. It’s worth it, because they are worth so much more than I.
I thank God for the gift of this understanding, for his example, and his love for me. I thank God for giveing me the oppratunity to live a fuller life. One with more rewards.
I may not have alot of money, but I am RICH!